April & May of this year found me at home, grounded on paper, but perhaps not in spirit. In retrospect, there were many joys and benefits to…… Read more “Diary of Depression (Journal Gems Part Two)”
In Summer of this year, I began using my time and energy a little wiser. I tapped into the mood-booster of learning. I took zoom classes read…… Read more “Journal Gems Part 3”
In 1995, Alanis Morisette released Jagged Little Pill. I was 13. I just lost my father for the second of many times. I was still navigating puberty.…… Read more “Jagged Little Pill”
Exploring the Kahakapao Trail in Pi’iholo.
Being a woman is a pendulum between loving and despising self. We are taught to do both. Over the course of my life I can think of times I’ve felt beautiful, felt smart, felt worthy, felt wonderful. Other times I’ve used my self-perception as a means to punish myself for existing.
You know how those online ads seem to chase you? Maybe one day you are scrolling your life away and you pause on a phone case ad…… Read more “So the Serpent Says”
This is Day Three
I prayed, journaled, added warmth, cooling gels, applied salves, balanced crystals, took drugs, joined support groups, I praised my uterus, I asked it for forgiveness, I went to acupuncture, I ignored it, talked about it, stretched, convinced myself I was crazy, went to physical therapy and resigned myself to a life of discomfort, wondered why and then decided, isn’t pain reason enough?
can’t tell you how fucking stressful this is. To look at your sensitive fiddle leaf fig with scissors hidden behind your back. To them, it is just another day staring at the sun, but you know in your heart what’s about to happen.
Today’s Tarot Study pull was 6 of Cups, who almost always brings along her sister card, 5 of cups. Together they are tender and welcome blooming of the heart after a harsh drought.